Monthly ArchiveNovember 2002
spiritual 25 Nov 2002 03:02 am
boxed in by good intentions
well, the weekend’s over. they go too fast, if you ask me.
i have a yearning in my heart, one that cannot be expressed by words. it consumes my thoughts continually, if not at the forefront then lurking in the background. i am in a rare moment of self-awareness, so i shut my eyes and just type. what is this longing withihn? is it God-breathed, or is it just my own desires? i long for the time when my brothers and sisters will rise up, when they will call on the Lord for their salvation. i long for the days when the young will walk with the old, when the generations will be one. and most of all, i long to find my place in all this. what am i to do? where do i go? how can make this vision i have a reality? how can i impart this vision to those around? how can i show the young people the potential i see in them? how can i get them to realize their worth? sometimes i just want to scream. i am in some type of preparation, some wilderness where the land is parched and the sky is wavy with the heat. thsi palpable sense of isolation is overwhelming. yet i feel safe. i know the wilderness, i don’t have to deal with the people. the people that i know will come. i know theat very soon i won’t be alone in this wilderness, but that i will be on a crowded city street, with people all around. if i can’t find direction alone, how will i find it when i’m drowning in the ocean of people? oh Lord, don’t let me be tossed in the ocean of humaity. keep me safe here, alone with you. i am weak, oh God, and you are my strength. i need your Grace, Lord. i need your mercy. my sins are before me, they are a hindrance to me. they continually trip me up, why don’t i stay on the path of holiness? my foot is lame, and rather than walk the easy way with you, i continually seek the rocky path. oh Lord, keep me on the way called straight, where the foot of the unrighteous does not walk.
geek 20 Nov 2002 10:37 pm
crazy month…
personal 20 Nov 2002 06:28 pm
trippin’ the light fantastic
i can now dance the meringa (sp?), the cha-cha, and the foxtrot. also some swing. i can’t do those well, mind you. but i can do them. yay. 
personal 14 Nov 2002 04:53 pm
I WANT IT!
i bought a car! it’s a 2001 pontiac grand am gt1. it’s silver with a black interior, and has all sorts of nifty features that you’d expect from a late-model car. like doors that don’t squeak, and a power steering pump that doesn’t blow up. and i have a warranty!!! i’ve never had one of them before! so this makes me rather excited. ah, the joys of making payments towards a depreciating asset are great!! some friends have seen the car, and here are some reactions:
- sister: oo… it’s spicy!!
- mom: hey! that’s cute! editor’s comment: cute? sup with that?
- friend1: does this thing have heat? i’m freezing back here!
- friend2: hey… the odometer goes to 150… can i drive?
- friend1: so, um, about that heat…
- friend3: how many bodies can you fit in the trunk? editor’s comment: um… friend3 scares me sometimes…
- dad: what was your interest rate? did you make sure it was simple interest, and there were no prepayment penalties? did you get the extended warranty? was it an exclusive warranty? what were the terms? did you call your insurance? what are your deductibles? do you realize you’re paying for towing twice?
with all that said, anyone want to buy a 1986 buick GS? great car. has served me well, prolly has another 150k miles in the engine, easy. holler back if you want a car.
